my best friend – Big Kate

I’d like to introduce you to my little friend. My little friend that isn’t all that little. My friend that I stalked and searched until I found one on ebay. I love this girl. So much.

Yes, she is a giant. Yes, a cashier said it was like “a backpack for an adult.” Meet Big Kate.

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Big Kate carries everything I need. I don’t always carry everything in Big Kate. I have another bag that I drop things in and leave at home or in the trunk for smaller trips (like into the mall or the grocery store). But I have a lot going on. I have a lot of things to do. I utilize my breaks at work to get on social media and to journal. I go to coffee shops a lot to get work done. A girl that has a lot going on needs a bag that carries a lot of stuff.

Just like Big Kate.

So, what do I have in there?

Cord bag and charger. (Because my phone won’t hold charge for diddly.)

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My favorite Erin Condren notebook that I use as a journal. (That’s my affiliate link – sign up and you get $10 off. Order and I get $10 off. Win, win!)

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My favorite notebook – cardboard front and back from Target (I’m keeping my eyes out for more. I loved these)  with my command center printables tucked in. And my Erin Condren planner.

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My iPad and lovely cover. I love having a sleeve/pouch so it is protected, but it doesn’t add bulk when I use it.

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Beauty stuff in the ratty Burt’s Bees bag, Flairs, and lip stuff that I need at quick notice.

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Green pouch for womanly needs. Adorable bag I bought on Etsy eons ago that holds my two pairs of glasses, and my most favorite wallet ever. I can tuck my phone into the pocket on the front. So when I want to carry really light, I just grab my wallet and my phone and carry it as a wristlet.

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Sunglasses. Little blank books, and my favorite black pens.

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Not pictured (because it is in the car and Nathan has taken it to dance class right now): this adorable water bottle. This is my absolute favorite water bottle. It is the right size to fit into the cup holder in the car. It holds 16 ounces, so it doesn’t add a ton of weight to my purse. I’m not exactly sure how it came to be in my posession. I know it came home with me from BlogHer ’09. I really thought it came in the race packet for the 5K, but Miranda and Lorrie didn’t get one. Maybe it was some sort of door prize. Maybe it belonged to someone stuffing packets and it got misplaced. I don’t know. But I do know that I love it. So much that I found a picture on my phone of the two of us together.

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So, there you go. A tour of my Big Kate. Yes, she may be heavy and a little cumbersome. But she carries all that I  need. In little, organized pouches. I don’t know if you’d find anything in there just floating around.

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So do you love what you carry? Does your bag – and the organization of it – make you happy? What tweaks could you make? Find joy in the small, everyday spaces. In your bag, in your car, in the jewelry you put on, in the arrangement of your cabinets. Where could you start?

Be happy, friends!

Speaking of happy, beFULL starts on MONDAY! EEEEKKK!

Here’s what you you need to know:

  • This offering will help you build a self-care and self-appreciation routine by asking questions and committing a small action task each day. Like 5 minutes. Seriously. Low time commitment, serious cumulative results.
  • Registration closes 10pm EST on Sunday night.
  • There are two different investments for coaching programss, one for emails + texts, and another for emails + texts + sessions.
  • There is a pay-what-you-can option for emails only.
  • This round is super duper important to me because I have a dream to follow.

I’d love for you to be a part of this. Let me know if you have any questions!

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my next crazy adventure…gulp.

If you follow me on Instagram, you’ve seen my #curvybeloved #practice pictures. (I’m not putting on facebook or twitter because they feel a little vulnerable. But, for some reason, here and Instagram feel a little safer.)

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I’m totally obsessed with this yoga + self-portrait course offered by Anna and Vivienne. It is really centering me with my body. I look at these pictures and I see strength and hope and being. I feel completely different looking at these pictures than I feel when I look in the mirror.

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I think about how yoga is changing my attitude about my body presently and it feels so much like how running changed my opinion of myself when I was learning to run. Running taught me that I was strong and that I could push through anything. But yoga is teaching me to listen to my body. That my body is me. To find peace and strength through stillness instead of motion. To appreciate what I am, not just what I could be.

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Two weeks ago, I told you that when I close my eyes and picture myself 5 years in the future, I am a yoga teacher. And I told you what I was doing to build yoga into my daily routine. I thought that was it. I thought that was a solid step. I thought it was a good place to start. And it was.

But if you know me very well, you know that I don’t just step. I leap.

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Through a crazy course of the-time-is-just-perfect and the-logistics-are-more-perfect happenings, I am going to become a yoga teacher.

Me.

I’m gathering my fear and my uncertainty and I’m going to put it away. I’m gathering my passion for the atypical athlete (as proven by my running coaching/group career) and my desire to build self-knowledge (as proven by my coaching practice). And I’m taking it to the mat. And then I will bring it to lots and lots of mats. I am terrified and excited. But isn’t that how I’m supposed to feel when taking a great adventure?

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But here is where I am asking for your help. I want to keep a promise that I made to myself and to Nathan last year. I want to pursue my career goals without taking on any debt. (So pardon me if I go a little NPR Pledge Drive here, but please stick with me.)

Since February 2007, I have blogged multiple times a week (every day for a very long time) either here or at the old blog (yes, that link works). I have spent a great deal of time developing free coaching content (Thankful in November and Worthy to Woo). And, in ways so eloquently stated by Correnna Gordon-Barnes, I invest a lot of time and energy in the upkeep of a blog, an online business, and all of the residual information that I send your way via social media. If you’ll notice, I don’t advertise on my blog. I do promote my own offerings, but that’s it. I don’t get money from ads or affiliate links or guest posts. (Although I do get nice Erin Condren referral gift certificates.) I write because it is who I am. And I do this for the love.

I’m asking, in a non-pressure but friendly way, if you ever felt like supporting me by purchasing one of my coaching offerings, please do so now. Rest assured that you won’t be funding a new camera bag or making my car payment or a trip to Sephora.

You will be helping fund my future as a yoga teacher. My hopeful career. My next step in this crazy path. And I’m not asking for a hand-out. You’ll get one of my proudest projects in return.

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Give beFULL another thought. Intention. Honesty. Fear-squashing. Facing forward. One month of little, daily assignments to shape a more you-ish you.

Looking at my average stats, if each of you purchased beFULL as pay-what-you-can for $12, you could pay for my yoga training. And if some of you added on a few extra dollars or purchased for a friend? I’d get closer by less of you.

If 60 of you purchased the resources + texts, you could pay for my training.

If 28 of you purchased the resources + sessions, you could pay for my training.

I say this not to guilt or to pressure because I don’t know where you are. But I know that to continue coming to read my words, they must resonate with you. I must resonate with you. And I know that there are people on the internet that I would respond to if they asked me to help support their dreams by spending $25. Especially if I was getting a coaching offering that she really believed in. And I completely believe in beFULL.

I admit that this feels a little icky. It isn’t my usual style at all. But kids sell candy bars to fund new band uniforms. And adults sell shirts and hats to fund the travel portions of their charity races. Sometimes the cause influences the buy. So I have to ask. Because I believe in the cause. And I believe in me.

And you’ll get more from beFULL than a hat or a candy bar.

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Registration closes Sunday at 10pmEST. Follow the links for info about pay-what-you-can emails only and emails + coaching.

If you found this too incredibly icky, I apologize. And I have a super-fun no-strings-attach post for tomorrow!

Tuesday eats…on Wednesday!

These posts usually turn into more of a day-in-the-life instead of just eats, but I like them. (I hope you don’t hate them.) They help me be super duper intentional one day of the week. And strengthen my belief that I can create and recreate these productive and content days.

6:45am. Breakfast: the usual green smoothie. But finishing up a blogpost instead of in the car.

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10:45am. Second breakfast (because i thought food + caffeine might help rabid headache): venti iced latte and egg + cheese sandwich.

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2pm. Late lunch from our Co-Op. Salad was good, fish cakes were amazing, and I keep forgetting that the only green beans that I like are flat.

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5pm. Tonight was run club! I did 3.75 total, but in 2 Garmin activities. It is warm out there, friends.

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7:30pm. There is nothing easier than fried rice. One skillet. Easy cleanup. Super fast. And tasty.

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8pm. I cleaned myself up, cleaned up the kitchen, and squeezed in 30 minutes of yoga. I paused the bedtime flow and repeated a few poses in the middle because they felt so darn fantastic.

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If I allowed myself, I could feel disappointment in things I wanted to get done that didn’t happen. But I’m not allowing that. I’m writing them down so they are out of my head. And then I’m going to bed with this. At 9:35.

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Happy, happy day.

no more musical chairs

I have had a hard time keeping everything together. (Don’t we all, though?)

I used to think it was a matter of time and energy and focus. That I couldn’t juggle everything. That if I got my coaching and health in check, then my finances would fall apart. That if I got my finances and health together, I’d fall apart on the business end of coaching. And, to finish it out, if I got my finances and coaching together, I just couldn’t get my health in line. And I was living out that self-fulfilling prophecy.

The other day, I was working on a writing prompt when I realized that this might not be accurate.

These challenges may not be rooted in a lack of time and energy. This may be about fear.

My fears play musical chairs.

If I don’t trust myself to live my best life, I will always have to have something to be afraid of. Something to be on-the-verge panicky about. Something to stress and fret about.

I don’t have enough trust in myself to believe that I can truly have it all together. So my fears bounce back and forth between the things that take work and focus. And when things start going smoothly, I look for signs that it is going to fall apart.

Fear looks for and then sits down in the most wobbly chair. And then I let fear move in. Because I knew he was coming. I pat myself on the back for getting things 2/3 right, and then I become content with my 2/3 success.

But I am challenging that. Daily. Moment by moment.

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I am proving to myself that I can maintain balance and fit by growing my trust in myself. How?

  • I am asking myself, very frequently, “what do I really want?” Do I really want this new makeup? Do I really want to turn on the tv? Do I really want this chocolate? Do I really want to just sit on the couch? And I am learning that I make the best choice for me when I take the time to acknowledge my choice. I’m trusting myself to look out for myself. And I am not going off the deep end.
  • I am writing. A lot. I am writing through my fears to see the holes and inconsistencies. I’m letting go of fear by shining light in all of the dark corners.
  • I have stopped tracking and listing lots of things. Calories, workouts, daily repetitive tasks. I’m sure this isn’t forever, but these lists and trackers were a crutch for me. They kept me from trusting my gut because I could depend on them to remind me. I don’t need a box to check off to remind me to check my bank account each morning. I don’t need a task to remind me to check up on my clients. I don’t need to keep tally of how many days I’ve done yoga to motivate me to do it today. Doing things that I want to do without reminding myself is building my trust in myself.
  • I’m not giving my fear any time to settle in any corner. I’m keeping really busy. I’m not watching much tv. (I mean, the Reds are on in the background a lot for Nathan, but I don’t care about baseball.) I’m putting away laundry – No Clean Clothes Mountain! I’m reading. I’m writing. I’m cooking. I’m sleeping. I’m playing with eye shadow. I’m living.
  • I am spending a lot of time on my yoga mat. I am gathering so much self-trust there. I am leaving my expectations of perfection. I am learning that I am able to be both good enough and able to be better.

I’m not there yet, friends. But I’m getting there.

No more musical chairs.

You can read more about my process of building self-trust here.

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beFULL is a month-long coaching offering that addresses ways to snuff out fear and build self-affirming habits through emails, with a group, and through one-on-one interactions with me.

You know all those thoughts and ideas you have right before you fall asleep at night–those big dreams? And then you wake up you have a million reasons why none of it will ever work–it’s just too scary, you can’t do any of them, you’re just too busy, and anyway life is generally OK now? Those thoughts are your future happiness, and with beFULL, Krissie will help you work through them in the sunshine. She will help you look at why those ideas are scary, at why they are amazing, at how they could change your life if you’d let them. The prompts that she sends are just the beginning of the journey, the opening door. The one-on-one phone calls or texts are the first steps over the threshold. And when you smell the air out there, when you see your dreams with their beautiful winged possibilities flying all around you, you’ll find yourself taking your own steps out there into the world of making your best self.  ~ Lori

There are several different ways to register. You’ll get the most out of the program by investing in emails + coaching. However, I believe in this course so much (and I will not be offering it again) that I wanted to offer an emails only option for those who just aren’t able to invest in coaching at this time.

beFULL starts MONDAY, JUNE 2nd. Registration will close at 10pm on Sunday, JUNE 1.

Questions? Leave a comment here and I’ll get to it as soon as I can.

week-in-review

So this past week was pretty darn lovely.

We loosely followed the meal plan from Minimalist Baker. Chili and cornbread were fantastic.20140525-174717.jpgI am still obsessed with Cassie’s Command Center Sheets. OBSESSED!

 

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Leftover chili plus sweet potato for a super easy dinner.

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Super excited to get my welcome code for MyYogaPro!

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The chicken salad recipe was pretty epic too.

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And the veggie pizza breads? Yowsa.20140525-174844.jpg

I had lunch at the Co-Op. All of this was great, but escpecially the Thai Tofu.

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I love the car wash. Just so relaxing.20140525-174942.jpg

I found pork belly lettuce wraps at County Club. And they were incredibly epic.

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Also epic? This graffiti at Arcadium.

20140525-175029.jpgI am participating in a yoga self-portrait project, and it is sincerely one of the coolest things I’ve ever experienced. I am so shocked at how it has changed my attitudes toward my body in a week.

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And looking forward…

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beFULL starts a week from today!

A month of restructuring our self-care attitudes and practices. Small, daily challenges to build self-attentiveness. You can challenge your unhealthy thoughts and build contentment into your day.

I just love this program. So much.

You can read more here and can register here.

I so hope you’ll join us!

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Yesterday, I was talking (typing? facebooking?) with my friend Tina. She was singing the praises of this polish system.

So, after work, I stopped at the mall for Jamba Juice and a quick peek into Sephora.

I wanted 2 colors – one for my hands and one for my feet. I was drawn to two almost immediately. So I picked them up, headed home, and beautified my nails.

When I went upstairs to do yoga in the spare bedroom, I had to laugh.

Fingernails meet wall.

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And toenails meet yoga mat.

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I am cracked up. I guess my yoga surroundings are spilling out from my subconscious.

Enjoy your Friday, friends!

Remember! beFULL starts June 2nd. You can register for program+coaching here or program only here (as pay-what you can).

pay what you can – beFULL

I don’t even know how to talk about beFULL.

I love being a coach. I love watching people grow and change during our course of working together. And I just love this offering because it lets all of that come front and center. No expectations, no challenges, no go-go-go. Just introspection and easy doings. Self-care, self-trust, self-value.

I think when we hear self-care, we automatically go to material things. Things that cost money. Pedicures. Bottles of wine. New, fancy clothes. Lotions. Makeup.

As I have explored both my own life and been invited into the lives of my clients, I have built a much different self-care practice in my own life. One that feels more manageable, more beneficial, more consistent. And here is what it looks like.

Self-care is being authentic on purpose. Knowing how you truly want to feel. Creating opportunities in your everyday life to build and cultivate that feeling.

Self-care is creating inner safety. Identifying where fear shows up in your day. Learning how to both quiet the irrational fears and learn to trust yourself to handle the fears that may be grounded in reality.

Self-care is honesty. Recognizing the things we tell ourselves that are not rooted in truth. Identifying the labels we put upon ourselves and then questioning their validity.

Self-care is facing forward. Leaving behind stories from our past that don’t propel us forward. Defining our future selves and recognizing glimpses of that person in today. Taking the space left vacant by released self-beliefs and actively replacing them with momentum-building characteristics.

And that is what we will address in beFULL starting June 2nd. You’ll get a weekly intention and then weekday small action steps. Small daily activities to keep you focused on creating a self-sculpted inner world and surroundings.

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Like I said, I absolutely love this offering.

You can click here for opportunities to join, but I wanted to extend a special offer here.

This isn’t on my coaching website. But you guys connect with me in a different way on my blog. You know me better than those that come to just my coaching website. So I want to give you a special opportunity.

I’m offering an emails-only option (no coaching sessions, text messages or facebook group) as pay-what-you-can.

I truly believe in the power and importance of interacting with me and other participants, but I understand that not everyone has $45-$100 to drop on that process. I understand that some of you haven’t experienced anything like this before and are leery of the investment. I understand that you might have a broken-down car or an out-of-work spouse or a big vacation coming up. You might have the desire and the drive but not the ability to commit to the typical fee. (And I know what that’s like. I’m lamenting myself not having funds to take a training that I am DYING to take.)

To take advantage of this offer: Send whatever funds you deem appropriate through paypal to me at krissie.bentley at gmail dot com . On the second screen, there is a place for notes at the bottom. Put “beFULL” in that box. I will register the email address that appears on this paypal receipt unless you tell me otherwise. So if your paypal email isn’t your accurate email address, note that as well in that box.

Questions? Confusion? Wondering which option to choose? Leave a comment here (someone else probably has the same question) or send me an email.

I’m super excited about this, guys. Come along.