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You guys know that I have a serious girl crush on Danielle LaPorte. And I also love that this week’s #desiremap prompt gives me an excuse to talk a little about my weekend.

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Mine was this. Right here.

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We were waiting on our dinner reservations in Asheville. We had a hard run that morning. It was sweatshirt weather. We don’t need a map to get around. It is our home-to-be.

And I felt pretty. And safe. And safe. and like I BELONGED there. Right in that moment.

I belong. To someone. To somewhere. To something.

I belong.

do you know the CARROT?

Friends. I have a very very entertaining app to tell you about.

I am kinda enamored with CARROT.

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I love a good to-do list. And I love some snark. Put the two together? And I’m smitten.

So the premise is this. You put your to do list into Carrot and then you swipe them off the screen as you get them done. Sounds easy enough, right?

Except you EARN THINGS for swiping tasks off your list. And you earn a cat that you have to feed every 24 hours. (I can’t wait until I unlock the level where I can change my cat’s name. So excited to call him Ferguson!)

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And the congratulatory messages are hilarious. My favorite:

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I’ve heard Carrot gets snarky if you ignore her or if you don’t get your tasks done in a respectable timeframe. I also heard tell that Carrot doesn’t like it when you poke her repeatedly, but I didn’t do that. (It really wasn’t me!) I haven’t come up against any Carrot dissatisfaction yet, but I don’t know what she’ll do when I don’t do any work this weekend so my app stays empty. I am starting to see more personality, though. Like taunts of carrot jokes.

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The app really builds on itself. There were things that I wanted to see in the beginning (where’s my completed list? Can I prioritize? Edit? Tell Siri to contact Carrot?) that I have unlocked as I’ve completed tasks. So that adds to the fun.

And by hitting publish on this post, I receive this lovely!

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Woo hoo!

Do you have any productivity apps I need to know about?

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Sometimes the words that I want to say are too close.

Too hard.

Too easily misinterpreted.

Too hard to explain.

Too hard to understand.

And it is on those days that I get comfort and validation in the words of others.

I came across these today in the back of my planner, in my own handwriting. I guess I knew I’d need them.

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can i give it away?

I have a million things swimming in my head about my business. And I have a lot of fun until I start factoring money into it.

When can I start to transition out of my job?

Am I putting enough back for taxes?

Am I charging too much?

Am I working too hard for what I charge?

Are people not coming to me because they don’t think my offerings are good or because they can’t afford them?

And I get stuck in that loop of want. That loop of lack. That loop of not enough.

I was reading through something (I thought it was the Art of Earning by Tara Gentile but I can’t find it in there) that said to set aside some time to not make any money. I was encouraged to think about not how much I could sell, but how much I could give away.

I must admit that thought was beautiful and glorious and truly lit me up.

So I sat down and tried to figure out how to make it work. I pulled out my master plan for the next year and noticed something glaring back at me.

November was blank. Each month had an action plan or an offering, except November. And November was wide open.

November is very special to me. November is the month of my birth. I officially opened my coaching doors and published my website last November. And November has become a month of gratitude.

Several years ago, I was in a very dark point in my life and I started this little thankful blog. And I honestly believe that my choice to search out things to be thankful for was the choice that saved my life. (And those of you that knew me then know that I am not just being dramatic here.) Because I posted daily on that blog and on Facebook for over a year, recognizing beauty and love and joy has truly become a way of life for me. And each November, in honor of Thanksgiving, I see Thankful in November groups and posts pop up all over Facebook. Even if they are in no way connected to me, I love the feeling that I am being publicly joined in a very private ritual. And I love it.

So November is special. And I hope to make it more special. Because I do best when I have accountability, I am sharing a very rough draft of November with you.

I am hopeful that I have an amazing November offering in the works. If I can pull this off… I don’t have a way to complete that sentence because I cannot even fathom the impact and excitement. The most exciting part of my November offering? It will be free.

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I am also going to set aside a day to do complimentary coaching consultations. All day. As many of them as we can get scheduled.  (I’m hoping that day will be my actual birthday, but I’ve got to clear that with my husband first.) I am never happier or more in my element than when I am coaching. I can’t think of a better way to ring in another year.

This isn’t to bring you in. This isn’t to sell. This isn’t to get you hooked. These gifts are a way for me to give. For me to be reminded why I am doing this. A way to distance myself from letting money determine my success.

I know I’m being a big tease, but I am so so excited. More excited than I’ve been in a long time. I’m so excited that I get to share this with you.

I hope you’ll join me in making November awesome.

 

 

 

i’m ready to build. horizontally.

I’m sure this won’t come to a surprise to you – because I’m sure that some of you are the same way – but I suck at listening to myself.

You? I could talk you through a problem all day long. We wouldn’t quit until we had a few things for you to try that were possible solutions and that truly felt good at the bottom of your stomach. I can creatively problem solve for days and love every minute of it.

But me? With my own stuff? I have a hard time talking myself through my confusion. (Unless I write it out here, which is still a convoluted issue because, really, I connect this blog to my coaching site and do I REALLY want to put all of my crazy out there? Yup. I’m still working through that.)

Yesterday, I was sitting in a waiting room for my real job and I saw a random invitation for an open facebook chat with one of my newest internet coaching and business inspiration gurus, Mara Glatzel. It started when Jaemie sent me a link to the podcast she does with Christie Inge. Ever since I listened to the first podcast, I have fallen in teeny-bopper love. Like bordering Danielle Laporte love. I’m reading her blog and am eating the Hello, Wonderful emails with a mother-loving spoon.

So, as I was saying, I saw on twitter that she was opening herself up for a facebook chat for the next hour. So I followed the link, and there I was.

I wish I could say that I presented some complex situation to Mara. I wish I could say that I didn’t sound like a silly fan girl. But neither of those are true. We talked a little about my coaching. She had some very sane and grounded suggestions, things that I had thought about and dismissed because they weren’t “big” enough. But she reminded me that there are times to build up and there are times to build horizontally so that my next leap can be HUGE.. And I feel like I have my feet back underneath me again. I have some very concrete tasks to accomplish.

On the way home from work, I stopped at Staples. I bought some binder dividers and a ream of paper. I came home and I started printing. All of those things I have in my dropbox that I’ve downloaded from here or there about marketing. About boiling down my passion. About building my freebie. About language in offerings and websites. About finding clarity in building my business. All of it.

I’m wearing out my printer cartridge and I’m ready to be a sponge. I’ve got my highlighters and my blank Martha Stewart Moleskine-knockoff notebook. (On sale for one dollar! HOLLA!) I’ve got a list of things I came up with myself to get the Krissie-Specific side of things rolling.

For the first time in a few months, I feel refreshed. I feel energized to do something toward building my business besides only working with clients. I absolutely adore my clients (and some of you I miss terribly!), but if I want to do this as a career, I need more of you.

I feel like I have a map again. A map that is curious and colorful and not set in stone. A map that I can decide what I take, what I amend, and what I leave behind.

And it feels amazing.

closer than I think

Sometimes I can get caught up in the “not quick enough”s. And the “I can’t do this forever”s.

Here’s the thing. Starting an business on the side? That’s HARD. It is exhausting and time-consuming. I am constantly having to negotiate my time. Do I work on my next offering or do I blog? Or do I spend time with Nathan and my friends? Or do take care of myself physically by doing a yoga workout or cooking dinner? (Runs must happen – this is non-negotiable.) Or can I just lay on the couch for 40 minutes and watch one of the Grey’s Anatomy reruns that I have on DVR? (Burke just left Christina – oh the FEELINGS.)

Don’t get me wrong, the work that I am doing feels AMAZING when I am in it. I actually do some sort of physical celebration any time I get off a coaching call. It might be a celebratory dance or I may demand a zero-context fist bump from my husband. I know I am in my sweet spot. But all of the things I have to do to get there? I’m a tired girl. And I can get stuck in the “this is never going to change” loop pretty quick.

But things have changed. Rapidly.

Fourteen months ago, I knew I wanted to build my own career, but I didn’t know what that looked like. I felt completely terrified and out of my element when I went to Miami for my RRCA running coach certification. And now I am super confident in my ability to train runners to run as a lifestyle and to make ongoing progress. The decision to attend that training was what turned me on to possibilities.

A year ago, I put ILCT Coaching Certification on my five year plan. I made a promise to Nathan that I wouldn’t put a cent of it on credit, but I would do it as soon as I could. I was prepared to put all of my coaching profits aside in a separate savings account and slowly watch the thermometer on Mint get closer to the goal. I completed the training last month (without a cent on credit) and will sit for my Board Certified Coach exam in early 2014.

Ten months ago, I opened my figurative coaching doors when I published my website. I thought I’d be happy if I had 5 clients in the first six months. I had that in the first month. Just like any business, there are ebbs and flows, but the slow times give me opportunities to read and grow and plan. I am still nowhere near doing the coaching gig full time, but I have moved from feeling like it is a hobby to feeling like it is a thriving business with incredible potential. (I just have to learn so much more about marketing and launching – and then make the space to implement it.)

Sometimes I feel like I have just been swimming around in circles, and some months that has been true. But every day, I learn something. I learn what lands and what fails. I learn how I react to challenges. I learn how to help others and, in turn, I broaden the possibilities for my own self-growth.

A year ago, I never would have dreamed that I would be here.

This creates a lot of excitement about where I could be in a year. And I realize that I probably have no idea. And it helps me commit to just putting my best self forward – as much or as little as that is on a daily basis – and trusting that my intentions will bring something amazing to me.

Say thank you for what is on its way to you. Go meet it halfway. ~ Danielle Laporte

That’s where I am today. Full of gratitude. And pointed toward a dream that is still kinda fuzzy.

And I wouldn’t have it any other way.