fear

I just wanted to let you all know that I’m scared.

I know I should listen to myself. I know I should trust my training.

But I’m a nervous wreck.

I am running a marathon in 5 weeks or so. I’m not sure of the exact number because I don’t want to know. All I know is that I’m nervous.

I know I’m not as trained up as I was this far out from the marathon I stopped training for when I hurt my foot last fall.

I know I’ll be running alone and that isn’t my strength. At all.

I know I’ve finished a marathon before, but the heat got to us. I feel like I never really hit the wall because we were walking at 19 due to heat instead of exhaustion.

I just don’t feel ready.

I’m going to do it, but I don’t feel ready.

That’s all.

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6 Comments

  1. You will do it and finish it strong. You will get a PR! You may have performed better if you had done Ashville but you are still trained and ready. Visualize yourself running that last 1.2 miles, crossing the finish line, and calling me to tell me about it. Then do it.

  2. Fear isn’t necessarily a bad thing. If you weren’t scared, nervous, or afraid, it’s probably something you don’t care about. At least that’s what my dad always tells me. Now, I know you care about running. EVERY race I have run has had a different training plan. Some races I can do speed work during training, and some I just don’t have the motivation to do it. It’s hard not to compare to previous races, but every race is different. You are still about a month out. You can make a lot of progress in a month and you can also regress a lot in a month. I know which one you will do and I will be cheering you on the entire way!

  3. You have a lot of armchair cheerleaders (and likely race site cheerleaders) pushing you along the whole way. Or at least they’ll THINK they are. Really, you’ve got this. The weather itself will have a HUGE impact on your success. Imagine how wonderful it will be to run in cooler temps. You’ll stay more hydrated, get to enjoy the scenery more, let your mind wander. You’re not running to win this, you’re running for the love of it. For the journey. So get some longer runs under your belt in the upcoming weeks to build your confidence but know that you’ve already done this which proves you CAN do this.

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