I just wanted to let you all know that I’m scared.
I know I should listen to myself. I know I should trust my training.
But I’m a nervous wreck.
I am running a marathon in 5 weeks or so. I’m not sure of the exact number because I don’t want to know. All I know is that I’m nervous.
I know I’m not as trained up as I was this far out from the marathon I stopped training for when I hurt my foot last fall.
I know I’ll be running alone and that isn’t my strength. At all.
I know I’ve finished a marathon before, but the heat got to us. I feel like I never really hit the wall because we were walking at 19 due to heat instead of exhaustion.
I just don’t feel ready.
I’m going to do it, but I don’t feel ready.