get a jumpstart on February!

Hey friends!

I just wanted to pop in (between freaking out over my long run tomorrow and tackling Clean Clothes Mountain) to tell you about a really cool giveaway.

Cassie is giving away my latest coaching special – a 10-day jumpstart for February. Click over to her blog to enter to win.

And think about signing up if you don’t win! Here are the details:

Interested in accountability services, but not sure if it is for you? Here’s your answer!

For a reduced price, we’ll get to know each other over the first ten days in February. The February Jump-Start accountability special shakes out like this:

  • We’ll set up a time to chat for about 30 minutes, either by phone or skype. We’ll talk about your big picture goals and then focus on a few specific ways to get started – or keep momentum – on them. These specific behaviors, usually three or four goals, will be what we focus on through the Jump-Start. My typical clients usually focus on health, wellness, home, or time-management goals.
  • I will check in on you daily through the challenge. (My usual frequency is 4 times a week, but since it is short, it will be intensive.) I’ll either text or email you to remind you of your goals and help keep you focused. We’ll problem-solve responses to challenges that come up.
  • By participating in the February Jump-Start accountability special, You’ll have a chance to enter the Lent Challenge or subscribe to ongoing accountability coaching at a 10% discount (first month only).

This program will cost $40 (a $58 value) and will run February 1 – 10. We will have our goal-setting session prior to February 1.

You can register here. I’m excited! I think it’ll be fun!

Now, if you’d think some happy thoughts for my 20-miler tomorrow, I’d appreciate it. 🙂

no one but me

So I’ve been struggling lately. If you have spent any time around me, you’re shaking your head in agreement. I have a marathon at the beginning of March. And I am planning on doing another the beginning of May.

And the thought of that second marathon just doesn’t make me happy. At all. For a variety of reasons. It just doesn’t feel like what my heart wants to do right now. I’ve got a lot on my plate. I’m physically exhausted. I feel really good, but I can feel myself starting to wear down. And I don’t like it.

I just don’t want to run a second spring marathon. Yes, I’ll be trained up for it. Yes, I love the Flying Pig. Yes, I’ll have plenty of friends there. But my heart just isn’t in it. At all. 

Bottom line (I think)? I love running with people. I love training with people. I love my friends. But there is no one I know running my marathon pace at either marathon. And I don’t want to do it alone. I don’t want to have a terrible time (as in enjoying myself not actual finishing time) because I don’t want to run alone. I just don’t know if I want to run for 5+ hours by myself. I’ll do it at Asheville because I’m already registered and it is in Asheville. But I can’t make myself register for the Pig.

I’m really enjoying May Cause Miracles, and today I was challenged to notice self-attack and self-judgement. And there is a lot of judgement going on around the second marathon.

  • You call yourself a coach. You should be training for a marathon.

  • What are people going to think if you back out of this race you’ve been talking about? How will that change their perception of you?
  • You preach making life fit and finding a way to meet your goals and now you want to back out on one. Why should anyone listen to you?
  • Buck up, sister. You are a marathoner. You may not enjoy it, but you can do it. Put your big girl panties on and just run alone.

But I don’t want to. And there’s no one but me telling me that I should. No one. Just me.

Two marathons in two months? That’s insane. I’ve been pretty much on a marathon schedule since July (but took 2 weeks off and missed my fall marathon due to tendonitis). I haven’t even registered for the Pig yet, so I’m not even out any money. I can register for the half, blow my PR (personal record) out of the water and have a great time. I can be there to cheer some of my half-marathon friends and all of my marathon friends across the finish line.

I can spend more time cross-training (and actually lose weight). I can take those barre fitness classes I bought the groupon for. I can do yoga and strength training if I back off my running. I can be a well-rounded athlete. I honestly believe my running will be strengthened. 

So why am I having such a hard time changing my mind and not running a second marathon in the spring? Why can’t I just commit to the half and get over it already?

fear

I just wanted to let you all know that I’m scared.

I know I should listen to myself. I know I should trust my training.

But I’m a nervous wreck.

I am running a marathon in 5 weeks or so. I’m not sure of the exact number because I don’t want to know. All I know is that I’m nervous.

I know I’m not as trained up as I was this far out from the marathon I stopped training for when I hurt my foot last fall.

I know I’ll be running alone and that isn’t my strength. At all.

I know I’ve finished a marathon before, but the heat got to us. I feel like I never really hit the wall because we were walking at 19 due to heat instead of exhaustion.

I just don’t feel ready.

I’m going to do it, but I don’t feel ready.

That’s all.

morning ritual

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I’ve started a new morning routine. It takes about 15 minutes. And it has changed my attitude. It keeps me focused. Sets my daily intention. And I don’t eat in the car anymore.

I start with this prayer from Danielle LaPorte’s Desire Map. I love her words. I am working on editing this to make it more mine.

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Then I repeat my core desired feelings a few times. I end with “power. thankful. nourished. free. moving.”

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My latest read is working through Gabrielle Bernstein’s May Cause Miracles. I am now on Day 4, but I’m holding my thoughts for when I’m deeper in.

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Next I take the daily reflection and put it into my planner and my mid-day phone reminder.

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My last work of the morning is the daily devotion from Women Who Do Too Much. My Best Girl E knew what she was doing when she went me this for Christmas.

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So that is my new morning. And I kinda love it. Like Tina said, it is like I am studying to create the life I want. And I love it.

Do you have a morning ritual?

brat

On my way to work yesterday, I was listening to a video. (Yup, you read that right. I wasn’t watching because I was driving. But it was on. Hence, listening to a video.)

Marie Forleo and Gabrielle Bernstein were talking about Gabby’s new book. Miracles. How you view your life. All the good stuff. But then Maria said something about how hard it is to stick to her resolutions on days that she feels bratty. They kept on talking, but I stopped listening.

She has a hard time when she is being bratty. And that stopped me in my tracks. (Not literally, of course. I kept driving.)

When it comes to what I want for myself, sometimes I am just a brat.

I think that if I run 100 miles a month, I should just be freaking skinny already, no matter what I’m eating.

I think that if I don’t buy that one thing that I want, I should somehow have my credit card bill somehow disappear as a reward.

And when that doesn’t happen? I get whiney. But I want that scone. And I want an iPad mini. But I want, I want, I want!

So sometimes? I am a brat. I don’t give my entire effort to things that I truly want. I want small actions on my part to have huge impact on my situation. And I don’t keep my mouth shut about it.

Like how I just tweeted that I wanted a frozen mocha from Panera. That was an example of me being bratty. I wanted something. But then I didn’t get it. But THEN I wanted attention for it.

I am a brat.

This type of thinking really helped me out last night. We went to the brewery to run with our friends. There was a food truck there that we hadn’t had before. I needed to make chili at home – both for the money and calorie budget. But we talked about eating at the brewery (initiated by me, of course). And then I said, simply, “I’m not going to be a brat.” I’m not going to expect to get what I want without changing my behavior. So we headed home. And THEN we drove by a brand-new kebab place. We typically would have stopped, but, nope. I am not going to be a brat.

I am going to put the work into what I want. When it gets tough. When it gets frustrating. When I just want to quit. What I want is important to me. I want to be a thin (there, I said it), financially free, spiritually healthy, self-employed person. Boom.

And I’m not going to get there by being a brat. Those habits are going to be very hard to break, but it is easier for me if I look at this way instead of that I’m denying myself of things that I want. “Don’t be a brat” is such a great response to “I don’t want to!” or “just this once!” or “I can’t do this.” I know that we should be giving ourselves positive affirmations. I should remind myself of who I want to be. But when I’m being defiant? That doesn’t shut me up. But what does? “Don’t be a brat.” I may pout a little, but I don’t do what isn’t in line with my big picture for my life.

I want to be a thin, financially free, spiritually healthy, self-employed person.

And a brat isn’t ever going to get there.

intentions: 7 days in

Alright. Almost a week into the New Year…how is everybody doing?

I’m kinda approaching this a little differently this year, as “intentions” may have clued you in on. Let me tell you how things are going so far.

We took our first sabbath this weekend. 24 hours (3pm Saturday to 3pm Sunday) with no internet or cell phones. It was awesome, but really really weird. We went to the first service at a new campus of our church and I really would have loved to live tweet it. And then after church, we decided to go out to dinner and I wasn’t able to ask anyone to join us. It was just…strange. I was chomping at the bit a little for 3pm on Sunday, but just because I had the first run of my newest C25K group at 4 and I wanted to put out any fires. There weren’t any. And the run was amazing.

Budget? Eh. It is hard to be on a budget when there is additional income coming in. I’m working on it, though. I did really well until I decided I needed a new running wardrobe yesterday. But I’m going to stock our fridge and pantry today. We don’t have anything coming up that should be an expense. I’m trying to focus there.

Weight loss? Nope. Not at all. I’ve been either busy or enjoying not being busy. But see above note about grocery overhaul today. And I am following my training schedule. I’m working on it.

Momentum with business. A+++++++. (Not that I’m keeping score or anything.) I’m having a blast right now. I had a totally tearful moment last night. This is going to work. I am going to be a coach. This will be my life. I feel so incredibly blessed. Incredibly. I know I am working hard, but there is also a lot of right-place-right-time stuff going on as well. I am just thrilled. I’m already planning the next coaching committed challenge (thinking Lent instead of a monthly challenge). I’m learning. Wheels are turning. It is a great time to be me.

I also set a few mini-intentions specific to the month of January (reporting through yesterday):
Food journal/team Bob = 1/6. eh.
Follow training plan – 6/6
Morning and evening devotional – 6/6
Making bed and 20 minutes with laundry – 6/6

So big picture? Very very nice. Just gotta get the food focused.

It’ll happen, friends.

So, how is your new year?

2013 intentions

How is it the 3rd and I’m just now getting around to posting my intentions for the year?

At the coaxing of Danielle Laporte (I’m LOVING the Desire Map), I am going with “intentions” instead of “resolutions.” It just feels less…legalistic to me. Feels more fluid, more amendable. I’m loving it.

So here we go!

* We will observe the Sabbath. I’ve become terrible at resting. Partially because my coaching business doesn’t feel like work and partially because I have so much I want to do. I realized the ridiculousness of what I do when we had friends over for dinner the other night and my phone was going bezerk. It was embarrassing. I need to step away sometimes. We had to do some shuffling because of my coaching responsibilities, but we are taking a 24-hour Sabbath each week. From 3pm Saturday to 3pm Sunday, we will be internet-free, cell-phone-free and work-free. So I’m seeing lots of reading, naps, and tv during that time. I’m very, very, very excited about this.

* We are on a serious budget. I don’t have a firm timeframe, but I would really really like to be self-employed. And this will require (of my own decision) being debt-free (other than student loans and mortgage). So we are just being very intentional. We are going no-spend-ish for January. We will each have a “fun” allowance and we have one dinner out. Other than that? Bills, gas, and groceries only.

* I have a very scary, unspoken weight loss goal. Spread out over the year, it is incredibly manageable, but the number itself is craaaazy. There’s been some trash-talking going on in the twitterverse, and I really hope it is what I need to finish what I started.

* I want to just keep the momentum of my coaching business. Things have settled into a very nice pace right now. I want to do what I need to do to keep it here. I want to continue with monthly challenges. I want to just keep it up.

I do have a few running-specific goals too!

* finish 2 spring marathons
* finish a fall half under 2:15 (GULP!)
* finish a 5K under :30
* total of 1250 miles
* 50 hours of yoga

Alright, friends. Let’s do this! 2013 or bust!