Friends. I so wish I could tell you that I’m rocking my own challenge.
Alas, that is not the case.
I was on a serious roll, friends. But then I realized that my goal of just journaling my food wasn’t doing anything to keep me from eating crap. So then I set a calorie goal. But when I can count in my head that I went over that, then why should I record it all since I won’t be making the goal anyway?
My food is in a bad, bad way.
And yoga? What’s that? I was doing SO WELL. And I was loving it. But then Saturday wasn’t structured as I expected (and I had a bizarre stomach bug), and then I just wasn’t motivated on Sunday, and I didn’t make it a priority yesterday, so nope. None then either.
My bed is beautiful every morning and my legs have never been more moisturized.
Here’s the bottom line, though.
So maybe I keep my food choices in line at work and then lose it when I get home. But that’s better than being permissive all day long.
And maybe I’ve missed three days of yoga. That doesn’t change the fact that I completed 8 days and have a 45 minute class cued up for as soon as my dinner settles.
We are smack-dab in the middle of the holidays. I’ve got shopping and parties. I’ve received guests and will be a guest. I’m planning ways to grow my coaching business during the New Year’s Resolution time. So what if I don’t lose weight like I wanted to? At least I know it could be much worse. I’m not totally checking out.
I’m giving myself grace. I’m trying to be better every day. I’m trying to find the momentum of the first week.
I’m trying to go back to this thought from last week:
When I want something that isn’t on plan, I’ll think “Is this accepting or is this changing?” The problem is that I don’t think that often at home. I’m able to stay focused at work because I’m not on autopilot with food.
I’m working on it. I’m still aspiring to be on Team Bob. I’m aspiring to get my weight loss back. I’m aspiring to do and be a lot of things right now.
I’m having a hard time, but I’m not giving up. Hopefully I’ll have a better report next time!