to run or to rest

It has been a very long time since I just sat down to write a post and then hit publish. But that’s what I’m going to do.

I’m feeling very…off. I have felt very off since the weekend. I know I’m still recovering from the relay, but I’m starting to wonder if it is just a cop-out. I’m dragging. I had a terrible run with Brooke last night (although she was awesome and pulled me through). My body just totally lost any sense of routine. I don’t have any hunger or thirst cues. I could seriously lay my head on my desk and take a full night’s sleep. I’m just off.

I have 5 miles on the schedule tonight. The coach in my says to take a break. I’m sore from my 5-miler last night. I’m exhausted. My house is a wreck. I could clean my house and take a little nap before Grey’s. I probably should take a rest day to be fresh for my 20-miler on Saturday.

But the Type A/Worrier in me says to push through. I took an unscheduled rest day on Tuesday. If I’m struggling through 5 miles, how can I expect to run 20 on Saturday, more or less a marathon in 5 weeks? 5 miles is on the schedule so I need to crank them out. No matter how slow. The house will still be a mess on Friday and I can clean it up then. I just need to put on my big girl drawers and just run like the schedule says.

I really don’t want to, though.

But I will.

Because I am a runner.

(And maybe I’ll see a zebra.)

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4 Comments

  1. It’s really great to push yourself through spots like that. But I’m worried you could get injured if you run and you aren’t fully present, if you’re too tired and you’re head isn’t there. I’m not trying to put a damper on you…just worried–as your internet stranger friend.

  2. You have always been really good about cutting through the bullshit and figuring out if it’s a mental hiccup or physical need to take a break. If your brain and body says run, then do it. But I think that the relay was harder than one might expect due to functioning on such sleep deprivation (and the off weather and off diet) so I suspect you might need recovery time to rebuild your energy and get back into your routine. If you do your 5 miles, try to make it easy. And fun. Also, I’ve heard that as long as you make your long runs, skipping a few short runs won’t substantially impede your marathon performance.

    Regardless, this is a really nice reminder that sometimes you don’t always want to do what you have to or should do. 🙂

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